Memories in paraphrase

You can’t be me
I’m a Rock Star
I’m rhyming on the top 
of a cop car
I’m a rebel and my .44 pops far!


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It's in the blood.
I met my love before I was born.
He wanted love. I tasted blood.
He bit my lip and drank my war...
From years before.

Love Like Winter

Kill this craving urge.
Now die monstrosity please.
It does hurt to ask.



I'm not sure what to say anymore.
There's no room left in my heart for anymore letdowns, disappointments, pain, happiness....
Just no more room for anything.
I'm so sorry.
I don't know where it begins or ends.


Music, you are my love.
You make my momentary moments of isolation...bliss.


Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you chose
The closet you cannot close,
The devil in you I suppose
'Cause the wounds never heal.

But everything changes
If I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel,

How much is real, so much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins
contaminating everything
We thought came from the heart,
But never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
no more sad voices

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
And All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head 

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream, down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

So you think you can tell Heaven from Hell?
Blue skies from pain?
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war...
for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish...
how I wish you were here....
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found? The same old fears.
Wish you were here. 


This movie btw, brought on an incredible sadness when I watched it a month ago or so at seven in the morning.
I'm not sure if it was supposed to awaken some sort of deep distraught sadness
but that's the effect it had on me.
Watch it maybe.
It's called 'Memento'
Hopefully it'll arise some other sort of feeling for you other than a complete incredible sadness and solace to reach out for someone or something.

"I'm in a skip divided malfunction
I flap around and dive bomb
Frantically around your light
Enveloped in a sad distraction
I got your voice repeating endlessly
Could you guide me in?
Could you smother me?

No more common dress or elliptical caresses
Don't look into your eyes cause I'm desperately in love
When you walk in the room everything disappears
When you walk in the room it's a terrible mess
When you walk in the room I start to melt
When you walk in the room I follow you round
Like a dog, I'm a dog, I'm a dog, I'm a lapdog
I'm your lapdog." -

BLADDER INFECTIONS YESSSSSSSSS



What am I ever doing in life?
It's kind of boring.
Well not boring but predictable.
I hate that I reached this point in life
Nothing ever surprises me anymore.


So I think im going to find a new myspace layout and lj.
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